I am miserable

My life is such a waste

I have no reason for living

Will you give me one?

Dear Mother,

If I committed suicide

Would you blame me?

Dear Father,

If I left

Would you miss me?

Dear Sister,

If I died

Would you mourn me?

Dear Friends,

If I wasn’t here

Would you notice?

Would you care?

Please answer.

My soul depends on your answer.

My fragile life swaying in the wind.

Life will never be the same form here on in.

Will you help me?

Will you protect me?

Will you love me?

Teach me?

Please I have to know.

You pay no heed in your busy life.

And that hurts the most.

Don’t you see the pain in my eyes?

Your harshness breaks my soul.

Your words shatter my heart.

Your actions corrupt my dreams.

The only thing I have

Please don’t take my dreams.

Will you?

Would you?

If I let you into my world

Into my soul

Would you care?

Would you distill my mind in the very essence of my thought?

Take away the only escape I have from your harshness.

From your pain

I see it in your eyes

Your hurt is the same as mine

Too many harsh words said

Too many lies told

Too many repetitions of the same scenes

You’re breaking my heart over and over

Your heart went through the same trauma too

If I held you in my arms

For if only a few moments

Could you walk away?

Heart mended

Soul patched

Mind purified?

And would you do the same for me?

Oh how I ache for your touch

To be held

All the hurt vanishing

If only for one second of this sweet Nirvana

I would be healed,

Purified

Sanctified by your warmth

But that will never happen

I give and give

And you take and take

I’m just a nuisance to your mind

But I could be a priestess to your soul,

And Goddess to your heart

Maybe I shall leave

Would you miss me?

Would you try to stop me?

I thought not.

Your face says it all.

It’s like a song I’ve heard over and over again.

The song never stops.

Will you make it stop?

Please,

I fear I can not take much more.

My life is hanging on by only one thread.

My mind on the brink of insanity

My soul in a constant state of despair

My heart forever forlorn

But yours is too

Don’t you see?

We could be each other’s

Angels

Saviors

But no,

You would never allow it

Never allowing any sort of love

You are too stubborn.

Everyone has their faults

But together

We could bury ours so deep in the Earth

We would be free

Free from the pain

The hopelessness

The captivity

The hurt

So

Do you wish to be free little one?

Will we start over?

Free form everything that holds us captive here?

Will you answer?

Please?